Blues… of the birthday

Ridiculously, I wrote about the birthday and the blues and all the feelings associated with it in a previous post,   It’s hard to believe that it has passed yet again, but my birthday blues has begun and with it I write.   I am Drunk. One beautiful bottle of red merlot down and I’m […]

There was this day

*SENSITIVE CONTENT WARNING I am all over the shop. Understandably trying to come off medication is a hard task. A task I took on willingly, but I task I cannot complete. I had a terrible time this week sadly there was a day where I was the closest I have been in a long time […]

Break UP, It’s you.

He has left me. Not leaving me but has left. Obviously, I am a patient and he would have many but when you have finally found the right DR it can be devastating when they break up with you. This is a painful break up and it’s not me. It’s you. You broke up with […]

School Holidays

I have the kids on school holidays.  This can be one of the hardest times of the year. Not only have I had to survive Christmas but I have three children arguing for my attention, fighting each other for first dibs on the treats in the fridge and no matter how enticing outside play is […]


Who would have thought that for five years I have been in a haze and presently I believe it was my prescription for Lithium. I have been religiously taking it morning and night along with my other medicines (Effexor and Seroquel) and having much faith in my community mental health department and one of the […]

Blog Crashed

  So sadly I have had a back of blog issue and need to upload a multitude of posts since October 2015. I will get them back on asap. Thanks for the loyalty.

I’m still lost.

I’m still lost.

I have been feeling lost, frustrated, angry, tired and these are all common words often used as a quick way to explain the pain we feel and the easy way to end the question, how are you?  I hate the question and to be honest people hate asking me because I have learnt now the […]

Jealousy why?

Jealousy why?

Sometimes I feel like a teenager in my head. I struggle having conversations with Eldest and I seem to butt heads over and over again.  How am I supposed to continue being the adult when I can’t focus at all? I am often fazed by her fabulous relationship with her father. She adores him, they […]

Waiting for some kind of advice from the Doctor.  I’m screaming all the time I need someone to explain why I haven’t had the up-lift I would normally get after ECT. I really need to feel better. There are lots of factors making this recovery so different to the others. I don’t like the house […]

What a week

What a week

What a week.  The week had been planned about a month ago.  Firstly my Youngest turns 5 this week. We are also getting a visit of some close friends which means dinners on a couple of the nights. Coffee catch up’s during the day time.  I am really looking forward to their visit. I am […]