Over Diagnosed

People who suffer have extreme mood swings. SWING between elevated mood called Mania and super severe depression.  Sometimes it is called ‘Manic Depression” a very common mood disorder and also so very debilitating. The Bipolar Spectrum has many different types of bipolar disorder.  These different types of bipolar disorder can be expanded including sub types […]

Reached The End

Yesterday was wonderful.  I came to the finale of my ECT. Basically MC had to make the decision but only if he could see a change in my.  I have been pushing for the last 4 to have been enough. BUT MC had instruction from my social worker that it can be our call as […]

When is it safe?

After being moved from the surgery waiting room to the recovery waiting room I am observed and monitored to make sure there are no adverse reactions to the anesthetic or the ECT. I get a nice cold juice and a sandwich and the nurse checks my blood pressure, pulse and respiration and continue to observe […]

Countdown In Full Swing

Countdown In Full Swing

Today was ECT 5! I am on the countdown to my last ECT (Electroconvulsive Therapy). I was transported by trolley to the theater and I didn’t have my canula in which is where they administer the anesthetic. I was in a fully fledged panic attack as they were putting the two electrodes on my scalp […]

Taking those steps towards the better me.

Taking those steps towards the better me.

It is safe to say that I am half way through my ECT (Electro Convulsive Therapy). I am not feeling any relief yet. All I want is to be me again. Become the mum I know I can be. Bring back the confident, strong, funny person that people used to like to know, people used […]

What is ECT like?

What is ECT like?

SO I got to have ECT #3 today and boy was it painful.  I knew having the time in between would heighten the chances of it being more painful but I was hoping I was strong enough to shrug it off. The pain was all physical; my jaw especially around my ears was aching and […]

And so the wait continues.

And so the wait continues.

I feel that sometimes I can talk myself into believing everything will work out the way I hoped. For once in my Iife I won’t have to fight for my freedom.  My life has been tough from the get go and I struggle too often with the voices in my head.  Lately I have started […]

How can it be this difficult?

How can it be this difficult?

All I really wanted was for my ECT to go well. Unlucky for my family we have had to start whilst the girls were on school holidays so whilst I’m in Day Surgery, MC is entertaining the Girls on Mondays and all three children on Thursdays. The is no other way around it as we […]

If only we could skip ahead and have the benefits now

If only we could skip ahead and have the benefits now

I rarely get sick.  So getting sick this week was a huge surprise to me;of all the weeks to feel so weak this is the week. Having gone ahead with the ECT (Electroconvulsive therapy) anyway means that I was going to fall apart physically and emotionally, loose myself.  It is not pleasant having to explain […]

Next…. Electroconvulsive Therapy

Next…. Electroconvulsive Therapy

So it is the Sunday before my first Electroconvulsive Therapy (ECT for short) this is the first of eight. Two a week on Monday’s and Thursday’s, I’m old hat at this.  As I have had it in two blocks of treatment over the last seven years. If I am going to be honest I am […]