There was this day

*SENSITIVE CONTENT WARNING I am all over the shop. Understandably trying to come off medication is a hard task. A task I took on willingly, but I task I cannot complete. I had a terrible time this week sadly there was a day where I was the closest I have been in a long time […]

Break UP, It’s you.

He has left me. Not leaving me but has left. Obviously, I am a patient and he would have many but when you have finally found the right DR it can be devastating when they break up with you. This is a painful break up and it’s not me. It’s you. You broke up with […]

So it has begun

So I guess it is time for an update on my progress since starting a new medication. Some information to help with understanding my new medication: Treating certain types of seizures. It may be used alone or with other medicines. It may also be used to delay the occurrence of mood problems in certain patients […]

Seriously Treatment Resistant Depression

I have been struggling with feeling that regardless of how much I want to feel better, how pro-active I am. I am resistant.   Yes resistant is a new word in my bipolar vocabulary and one that I haven’t really considered. Broken, bent, crazy, frustrated, beaten, angry, dark, sick, disappointed, hurt, confused, stressed, lethargic, weird, devious, […]


Today I was inspired to write regarding a question I have which is; Is it ok to judge someone’s writing on the one or two pieces you have read or before you weigh your judgement should you be well versed in all their words and stories. I try with all my might to make sure […]

Rough Send Off

It is hard for me to stand by and watch my siblings in pain, any kind of emotional or physical pain.  I am the big sister and it has always been my job to protect them, to save them from themselves, to teach them what they should and shouldn’t do and be there to help […]

Lost Poetry

Poetry was once an outlet for me when I was younger back when I was processing the painful, draining life I was living.  I didn’t have a shoulder to cry on or a friend that had my back. I had to give everything I had to everyone else before I had anything for myself and […]

Bipolar Christmas Lost

There is one time in the year that my bipolar self dreads. Christmas. Growing up Christmas was always a huge family gathering, tonnes of food, beautiful roast pork with salty crackle and grandma’s famous trifle. There was drinking and the more drink that was drunk the more in depth the conversations became.  We all loved […]


Who would have thought that for five years I have been in a haze and presently I believe it was my prescription for Lithium. I have been religiously taking it morning and night along with my other medicines (Effexor and Seroquel) and having much faith in my community mental health department and one of the […]

Blog Crashed

  So sadly I have had a back of blog issue and need to upload a multitude of posts since October 2015. I will get them back on asap. Thanks for the loyalty.