Blues… of the birthday

Ridiculously, I wrote about the birthday and the blues and all the feelings associated with it in a previous post,   It’s hard to believe that it has passed yet again, but my birthday blues has begun and with it I write.   I am Drunk. One beautiful bottle of red merlot down and I’m […]

Break UP, It’s you.

He has left me. Not leaving me but has left. Obviously, I am a patient and he would have many but when you have finally found the right DR it can be devastating when they break up with you. This is a painful break up and it’s not me. It’s you. You broke up with […]

WTF is wrong with me?

BROKEN MOLD We; ie medical professionals can not find a diagnosis to assist me with treatment. Obviously I know that no one person has the exact same, tick the box, characteristics for each disorder, but really being able to lock something in would help the explanation to family, help make the right decisions with medication […]

Lost Poetry

Poetry was once an outlet for me when I was younger back when I was processing the painful, draining life I was living.  I didn’t have a shoulder to cry on or a friend that had my back. I had to give everything I had to everyone else before I had anything for myself and […]


Who would have thought that for five years I have been in a haze and presently I believe it was my prescription for Lithium. I have been religiously taking it morning and night along with my other medicines (Effexor and Seroquel) and having much faith in my community mental health department and one of the […]

I’m still lost.

I’m still lost.

I have been feeling lost, frustrated, angry, tired and these are all common words often used as a quick way to explain the pain we feel and the easy way to end the question, how are you?  I hate the question and to be honest people hate asking me because I have learnt now the […]

What a week

What a week

What a week.  The week had been planned about a month ago.  Firstly my Youngest turns 5 this week. We are also getting a visit of some close friends which means dinners on a couple of the nights. Coffee catch up’s during the day time.  I am really looking forward to their visit. I am […]